unfairness!

i looked back
a cloud
existing
inconsequential

i
gave
when it was dry.

and then...
was sucked back up
inconsequential...

rain :
happiness.
sun:
need.
rain...
sucked up...

did they care
how it hurts
each drop
squeezed
from my being
hit
the
HARDHARD
earth

inconsequential...

and then...
sucked dry
floats
waiting to rain
all over again
inconsequential...

a word of advice....

i discovered i love blogging... i was in quite a bad mood today... and i suddenly felt like scribbling to vent my frustration..and so here i am!!... i was actually feelin quite discouraged earlier abt my blog... i mean... nobody even cared!!! but i hav grown up bloggily... i actually don care if u read it or not.. it feels good jus to write ... n write ... n write....and to know ur scribblings wont b lost!!
to those of u who don kno hw to vent out anger or hurt... my advice.. try writing... put each of ur feelings down... its quite fun... u should see my diary when i am down!! it is filled with scratches n cuts n big bold words!!! and then the fun gets better wen u turn back those pages aftr mebbe two months ... u suddenly realise how bloody stupid u were... n how much u hav grown in those two months!! yes... u actually do end up laughin at urself n also in some ways appreciatin yourself too... there were even times wen i thought i was mentally derailed while writing all those down!!

so try this out n let me kno how it works out for u.. at least it is better than breakin stuff or worse.. hurtin ppl right??....

p.s
pls don assume only ppl with a flair for language can be successful in this.. oh please... if it works for me, it will work for everyone!! happy doodling!!!

mooned...

i am mooned
i am obsessed...

last night
saw
i

clear night
stars
breeze
cold
so warm

bright bright bright
moon

wegazedtogether

spoke
of
childhood
growing up
friendship
romance
life

mooned

beautiful

silence
companionship
understanding
unspoken all of it

mooned
i am

to look beyond...

(1) i took upon myself a thrill a task a risk self discovery to look beyond i cried i was the only one who liked myself illusions destroyed i lost the only admirer i ever had i m lonely i m tired scared (2) center me i myself what futility think of u we us all are faulty compassion comprehension sadism or perhaps masochism call it what you may i really do not care do not mistake me i enjoy this

u kno wat i m afraid of? that nobody will notice this blog...

i mean.... i want to remain anonymous not cos i want to exploit some one but cos i m shy... i don kno hw ppl will react to my writing... i am a coward afraid of opinions... afraid of hearin frm ppl this is total crap... it feels worse wen it come frm ppl u do kno... strangers are kinder in that sense...

so i seek refuge in my anonymity...

but how do i get strangers to notice me?!!

some day.....

some day....
it will all pass...
life...
sorrow n laughter...
some day...
ill find u...
some day...
ull leave too...
some day...
ill look back...
and cry...
i miss u...
or so i think...
some day...
ill regain some sense...
discover...
my self...
i realise...
some day...
life was a farce..
i smiled when i didnt want to...
i forgot to cry when i had to..
some day...
ill realise...
i was wrong all the while...
some day...
ill look back and think...
some day...
ill change this all...
but somwhere some day....
i realise...
this is me...
all this is me...
ill smile again...
some day....